Feeling Sad And Barely Breathing (continued)
I could logically articulate the need to "work through it" and move forward. I had the answers.
As I faced my own grief, my so-called "expert" knowledge was tested. My heart and head were out of sync. Confusion consumed me; and relief and comfort eluded me.
Friends and family held me up as my legs wobbled and my tears flowed. I read, re-read and savored every condolence note, beautiful card, flower arrangement and other expressions of kindness. I ate the well-prepared meals brought to me, despite the fact that I couldn't really taste anything. The flavors of sadness filled my senses. Fortunately, no one rushed me to "work through it". Others supported me in the time it took to get strong again. Eventually, I copuld see the sun. I got up and got going.
I am now able to engage both my heart and head in the process of helping those saddened by loss. Reaching out with deliberate acts of kindness helps nurture me. By giving time to others, I fill my own companionship void. By listening to their sweet memories, my heart smiles and feels lighter.
The takeaway…
Kindness is deliberate and a mutual healing strategy. BE Deliberate.
(December, 2015)
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